Another scorcher of a post Miss LD! I actually get how you feel but from a different perspective. I feel like a failure of an adult because of how long I've been single. Even my soon-to-be, 66yo mum has just shacked up for the first time in her life, with her soon-to-be 72yo boyfriend of less than 6 months. I'm the only single person I know, and it's fucking depressing. Where my mum was my BFF and my person, for her, I've now been replaced, and she doesn't even see it.
I feel shockingly selfish and bratty because she has devoted her life to raising me and being there for me, but I'm not her 'person' anymore. She even removed me as her emergency contact. The thing is, it would all be SO much easier if I hated him, but unfortunately, I love every atom of his being; he is the kindest, sweetest, loveliest man I have ever met, and he treats my mum like a queen, and me like a princess - how am I NOT supposed to love someone like that?
The only option I have available is to keep my loneliness to myself and pour every emotion onto a blank page, where it belongs.
Another scorcher of a post Miss LD! I actually get how you feel but from a different perspective. I feel like a failure of an adult because of how long I've been single. Even my soon-to-be, 66yo mum has just shacked up for the first time in her life, with her soon-to-be 72yo boyfriend of less than 6 months. I'm the only single person I know, and it's fucking depressing. Where my mum was my BFF and my person, for her, I've now been replaced, and she doesn't even see it.
I feel shockingly selfish and bratty because she has devoted her life to raising me and being there for me, but I'm not her 'person' anymore. She even removed me as her emergency contact. The thing is, it would all be SO much easier if I hated him, but unfortunately, I love every atom of his being; he is the kindest, sweetest, loveliest man I have ever met, and he treats my mum like a queen, and me like a princess - how am I NOT supposed to love someone like that?
The only option I have available is to keep my loneliness to myself and pour every emotion onto a blank page, where it belongs.
Until we Zoom again!
xxx